Are You Fucking Kidding Me?

      I'm better today....but last night....I haven't been that enraged in a long time. I'm still very mad, and hurt. I just don't understand you....What the fuck were you thinking? How could you not tell me? 5 days after we stop dating you get a girlfriend? What. You just met her a few weeks ago. Yeah I knew you were gonna date her, but you should tell me if you were serious! God, you are so clueless about relationships! How could you? I had to find out from my sister while I was at fucking work! How could you do that to me? There I am sitting in the aquarium where everyone can see me and I'm trying my best not to cry or kill people. I'm so furious. I'm so hurt. I'm shaking, I'm struggling to breathe, I'm getting hot and cold. I don't know what to do. I text you and you ignore me when you see that I am pissed off. You can just run away when I get mad! Talk to me! You just can't "wait till I calm down." That's not right. You didn't give me the satisfaction of yelling at you more. And it hurts that you abandoned me when I needed you! When we "broke up" on Sunday it was terrible, and I was heartbroken...and then you go and pull this? AND YOU SAID YOU WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME AND LAST NIGHT YOU WEREN'T. YOU LEFT ME ALONE TO CRY AND BE SO HURT. HOW COULD YOU? The worst part is that you have no idea that you did anything wrong....and that you don't know me at all. You posted your relationship on facebook for the world to see, without telling me. I'm even in love with someone else and I'm not their girlfriend. Why? Out of respect for you! And the fact that I'm not quite ready. So 5 days after we stop dating you get with someone you hardly know? I didn't know I was so easy to get over. I would have told you if I was gonna be  official with him. What did our over 2 year relationship mean to you? I know we weren't together all that time, but we loved each other. We talked about getting married. You were it for me. Does that mean nothing to you?
     And of course you didn't tell her you love me. Hun, that is like Relationship 101. She needs to know that we were very serious and that we still love each other. Not just that we went out and you still have feelings for me. -__- I'm still so furious with you....but I know that you didn't mean to hurt me. I know that you are just stupid and just don't think to tell me these things. I don't hate you, I never could. I'm just so sad and devastated right now. I have to see you when I go to work in an hour. That should be a good time... And I fucking swear to God if she is there when I get there......you will deeply regret it. If you didn't invite her and she just springs a surprise visit on you, then you better KICK HER THE FUCK OUT before I get there. Or there will be hell to pay. I'm not mad at her, but if you are that stupid to have her there....just don't.